Poetry

Recently, I was reading Paul Kingsnorth’s essay The Language of the Master (which is not new but was new to me.) After he describes Iain McGilchrist’s conception of the Master and the Emissary (with reference to the human brain), he writes:

“…What languages does the Machine not speak

“If the emissary runs our world, then we all speak his language, because we have all been trained to. It is the language of clarity, dissection, parts and not sums, specialisation, dis-enchantment, reason, theoretical rather than practical expertise, technological ‘solutions’, bureaucracy, abstraction, mechanism. The emissary will, left unchecked, turn our world into a machine, because he thinks it already is one. In the process, he will turn us into machines too.

“Linguistically, then, we should all be encouraging the master to regain power. This means working with the ways of seeing and communicating which machine culture downplays or ridicules, but which every traditional society before modernity’s advent understood and worked with. That means myth, religion, practical expertise founded upon physical work, rooted imagery, holistic conceptions of life, communication with non-human beings, poetry, complexity, questions that do not have answers, questions which are not questions at all. It means seeing time as a circle, not a line, life as a process, not a puzzle to be solved, death as a part of that life, not an enemy to be defeated. Sometimes – horror of horrors – it means embracing unknowing. It means learning to stop, and be silent.”

Kingsnorth has a talent for asking just the questions I need to send my thoughts in a fresh direction. But this is the first time that I have read something and thought: that is a good reason to write poetry.

Many years ago I used to write poetry, and considered it fundamental to who I am. But I stopped shortly after graduating from university because I couldn’t see how my poetry could connect me to a larger community or purpose. I knew of a few options: to continue writing, alone, and submitting work to journals read and edited by a tiny minority of people I didn’t know, and had no particular reason to respect. I could join local writers’ groups, but they weren’t doing the sort of writing I was interested in (to put it politely). I could join academia, which was additional expense and years of my youth and I could perceive, even then, not a world I wanted to be part of. So, my energy went into other things, and I’ve never regretted it. But now, reading this article, I see a purpose for writing poetry again, or at least writing poetically.

Do I even know how to write poetry anymore? I certainly couldn’t give anyone instructions how to do it. My instinct tells me to start with small observations or episodes of life that represent bigger questions. Put words on paper (real paper, not a screen) and then start re-writing from there. I can even think of blog entries that could be starting points. But rather (and I have observed this already happening) writing poetry will lead me to look at the world in a manner conducive to poetry. That is perhaps the bigger point.

Right now, I also have no need to force poetry to serve as a means to an end in my life. My life already “is”. It has its own purpose and validity. Poetry can just be poetry. I don’t have to write like I did twenty-five years ago. I don’t have to write like anyone else. I can see what direction it goes.

What I will need to figure out though, is what sort of shape my poetry could take. What I have now is an embodied memory of what it means to write poetry. What I don't have are goals. I know I need some kind of a goal. I'll also need somebody to share writing with, so I will need to look into some sort of group or mentorship situation.

Meanwhile, the notebook continues to fill!

Links:

Original Writing:

A Christmas Palimpsest (December 2025)

Woods (November 2025)

The Flow Poem (October 2025)

Writing about Poetry:

Poetry (outlining my motivations for revisiting the reading and writing of poetry)

Saying Yes, Saying No

How does the made-up get into the real

Other things I have previously written connected to poetry:

The Saints

Poetry Cunningly Made

Play With You

Goals and things this year so far

With reference to.

2025 Things of Beauty

It’s April May, and I thought I would review how my various projects are going.

1)The Fairy Queen coat: COMPLETED

This was a fun project, and the final result is pretty, and cozy. I wore it when we went out of town for a weekend. It is comfortable to wear, but a bit of a conundrum when I need to take it off: it’s too heavy to hang up and I don’t feel comfortable just leaving it in a pile somewhere. But it is perfect for spring days when I need a layer but don’t want to wear a coat or jacket.  Plus, it is so very, very extra.

2) Bead crochet:

I haven’t tried this yet, as there are so many other things I’m doing. I may get to it later in the year, or maybe next year, it remains to be seen.

3) A doll inspired by our new adult group dance. I’ve made quite a bit of progress on this project. I love our dance and so do audiences and festival judges, so I was motivated to begin the doll. One good thing: the pattern I’m using seems to be creating a smaller doll that works up quickly, so that should leave time for all the details I am imagining.

4) Gift projects: Nothing major yet. Impulsively, I crocheted some “nests” for chocolate Easter eggs. They worked up in about 5 minutes. I filled some with chocolate and gave to co-workers and also made a couple nests for the girls’ egg hunt.

5) Sewing: plan altered. I found a large piece of free material so decided to use it to make a dress first. IN PROCESS. I expect this to be a learning experience, so I’m relaxed about it. A few points so far:

-People often comment that I must have a lot of patience to do handcrafts. This comment amuses me because I don’t need patience for things I enjoy, but for things I don’t. Having said that, my experience of sewing so far is that it requires a lot of patience, and I haven’t even started sewing yet.

- I bought a PDF pattern, and had to print 60 pages then piece them all together very carefully with tape , then cut out all the pieces. This took about two afternoons. I was also grateful for my yoga classes as I spent a lot of time on the floor squatting.

- after this paper craft was finally finished, of course I realized I didn’t have enough material after all for the long flowy skirt of the wrap dress pattern I chose. (I guess you can’t skip over the math part.) I decided to shorten the skirt panels by folding the paper patterns until they fit the piece of material. Not sure how long the skirt will be after this modification, but I’m guessing knee length or maybe slightly below.

Currently, most of the pieces for the dress (but not quite all) are cut and sitting on a pile on the ironing board. Not sure when I will finish the cutting and start the actual sewing, but I am most of the way there. Compared to yarn crafts, sewing seems to take a whole lot more prep and effort to even begin, but some of this  is no doubt due to being a novice. Next time though, I think I will look for a pattern I don’t have to print and tape together, as that was a huge amount of work, though not unpleasant to do with a podcast playing.

6) However, a related task that I can check off is that I did indeed clean up and organize my sewing/yarn corner, confirmed the sewing machine is in working order, and finally bought a new ironing board cover. While my mind might contain a low level of chaos at all times, my supplies and working area need to be very tidy for any magic to happen.

7) Lunch prep is still going quite well, though staying ahead of the girls’ often randomly changing food preferences can be annoying. I also tried making shepherds pie, quite successfully. As a cook, I lean toward soups and casseroles: comfort food. I joke that I cook like  it’s the 1950s or a funeral. Shepherds’ pie (inspired by a co-worker who brought her leftovers to work) is totally my style. I have also made some quite delicious fried rice a few times recently.

Something else I have been doing better lately is using leftovers, either prepared food or partially used ingredients.

8) The Divine Comedy: I have been finding  it a bit of a slog and haven’t picked it up in a while. Wondering if an audio book might be better (though I do like all the pictures in my book.) I also can’t say I find it a particularly spiritual experience to read so far. It seems more about the author putting all the people he knows as well as historical figures and classical writers in their appropriate sections of Hell. This is an interesting project, and would be pretty spicy commentary for someone who was familiar with all these people. An updated version, featuring contemporary celebrities and politicians could be highly entertaining.

I also am aware of an online course on the Divine Comedy, which could help to make it accessible. (No doubt there are several, but I have listened to and enjoy Pageau/Rohlin’s work). It’s expensive though, and would also take time to go through, so I’m not sure, but maybe. I know the Bible (especially Old Testament) has been a lot more approachable and enjoyable when I listen with commentary (see here and here). I like to think I can just dive into things and figure them out, but the truth is my youthful literary education had plenty of gaps in it, and I can’t assume I have the background to access all these books.

9) Novels: I have not read any novels yet this year. I have come across various recommendations, but I’m not sure I will be able to track them down for when I actually want a novel to read. Maybe I should make a list somewhere.

10) Spending time with family members: hit and miss, could be better. Time very easily goes by without scheduling a visit. Plus other obligations, getting sick, all that stuff. Same comment with regards to getting inside a real church every now and then.

Anyway, now for emergent projects!

A) Working on a crocheted vest. Slightly obsessed with sweater vests lately, and not excited by the ones in stores. I found a good designer, and will likely make two of her patterns. But the current one is a brilliant sky blue, perfect for spring, and for working on the hour before going to sleep (often with a podcast on).

B) repairing things. Going to try shoe repair, and also a blouse that tore at work. More on this later, hopefully I can report success.

C) Spring wardrobe shopping. This might be more pampering myself than a goal, but the goal is to dress in a more interesting way every day. I have a habit of saving “nice” clothes for some hypothetical occasion, and dressing myself better in my imagination than I do in real life. I’m trying to actually live in what I own, and enjoy it. Plus, women have to reinvent themselves every five or ten years, at least I have observed that, and I am embracing the process deliberately.

D) Research on who/what to vote for: I completed TWO votes end of April, one of national significance and one of personal significance. I put the most effort into the personal one, and hope for the best in the national one. I’m not fond of political drama, and dread being pulled into it for any reason. But sometimes the drama finds me, though I avoid quite a bit of it by not engaging with the internet. 

E) Digital fast (clearly not observing it during this writing). I participated in a sort of digital fast up till Easter. Basically I deleted my Substack app and limited time on messaging apps, because it seemed like these ones were the most tempting. There was some reduction in the time I spent online, but honestly not a huge amount.  I observed that while the internet can waste my time, I also have an internal wish to waste time on occasion and if I am denied one outlet I will look for another. So if I’m not able to read my Substack feed I start googling fashion, for example.

But I do think that I benefited from not having my attention so fragmented, and I did make progress on craft projects, as above

F) (but not an F grade!) Yard work! On a particularly pleasant day of Easter weekend, I spent a solid afternoon doing physical work in the back yard. I had one goal, but ended up surpassing it, raking the whole yard and sweeping the patio. It was warm, thr birds were singing, and I was surprised how relaxed I felt, and even did not feel frustrated over the general shabbiness of our yard which persists despite any amount of labour. It really was joy in the process.

Summer seems just around the corner here, so more to come!

Sources of light

Paul Kingsnorth published this article on St Patrick today. At the end he shares St Patrick’s Breastplate. It reminded me that I try every now and then (not often enough truly) to go somewhere in nature and read it out loud.

Most recently, when we were on vacation over Christmas, I went for a walk with the kids and found this surprising little clearing near a playground. In the middle were a couple of trees and a hill that called me to climb it. On top of the clearing I read St Patrick’s Breastplate aloud.

I asked the girls to join me for a couple of stanzas. It feels awkward to say aloud things that feel natural to think and feel. But I figure I have to try, and the need is always stronger around Christmas time. There’s something about Christmas that makes me antsy: it’s like I have all this energy and it has nowhere to go and no way to be expressed. I always miss my lack of religious practice most around Christmas.

I could say a lot about the last week of December 2024: maybe later. But this walk up the hill by the tree was a peaceful, complete moment. I remembered it when I read Paul’s essay.

Dreaming of spring

I probably think in pictures as much as I think in words. And often these pictures have to do with fashion: or costuming for life, as I like to sometimes call it.

I like to look up different kinds of style, and it’s what I’m most likely to do when I’m too tired to do anything else. About the only way that pop culture still has a grip on my imagination is through fashion: I don’t know or care about most celebrities or what they are doing, but I don’t mind looking at what they are wearing. 

Of course one can take this too far. I love the feel of a well-fitted and pretty garment, but experiences matter more than what I am wearing when I have them. Likewise it’s possible to try too hard.  A lot of movies seem to prioritize atmosphere and costumes rather than story.  A couple of random examples: We were watching Tim Burton’s Alice in Wonderland yesterday, and the moral of the story is ostensibly about Alice not following feminine convention: marrying, taking care of a husband, etc. But every other scene has her breaking out a new outfit, including the last one where her new job offers an opportunity to pose fetchingly on the deck of a ship. There isn’t much straying from feminine stereotypes in the end, at least not those that involve shopping.

Over Christmas holidays my mother-in-law took me and the girls to see Wicked. As a whole this movie underwhelmed me, but they certainly were trying extremely hard with the sets and costumes. It looked like 80% of the budget at least.  Amid the excess of colours and trimmings and mash-ups of every possible style, I found I had little attention or sympathy for any of the characters. They all came off as ridiculous, because what else could you be in such an absurd setting.* (I didn’t see the movie till the end: my youngest daughter got very upset during one scene and we left the theatre: thinking about it, I believe her instincts were sound.)

* I realize I might sound cynical. I might be turning into my dad when it comes to movies. Growing up, he refused to watch almost anything made after 1965, and his reaction to a majority of media was “this is completely ridiculous.” It’s not even taking offence at that point, it’s an inability to even engage. 

So, I don’t particularly enjoy seeing my enjoyment of fashion taken to excess. At the same time, it is an art form and as such, you need to be open to experimentation. I enjoy combining pieces in fun, practical and surprising ways, and I enjoy watching others do the same. It’s probably the easiest way to bring a little creativity and whimsy into every day. And as the seasons turn, I always long for something fresh and different to match the moods of nature.

My challenge right now is to bring just a hint of springtime into outfits that still need to be cozy most of all. It is well below freezing outside, and my workplace is so poorly heated that going without a sweater is unthinkable, and often said sweater needs another layer on top of it.

I played around with lace and florals and bright prints and colours: all these have a whiff of spring and summer to them. But they can still be layered for warmth. As far as footwear goes, until the snow melts it will be boots or rubber boots: not much room for imagination there. But my little experiments are making me feel slightly more patient with the last few days of the polar vortex, at least. 

I modelled for some headless photos here, to help me remember my ideas. I often spend time planning fun outfits then get apathetic in reality and just wear the same thing again. I quite like these though and I think I will wear them to motivate me to show up for the final weeks of winter with some enthusiasm.

2025 Things of Beauty

The past couple of years my “New Year’s Resolutions” - if that’s what they were - were more like themes or intentions. That seemed like the right approach at the time, but I find myself in a different head space this year. I have instead very specific projects and actions in the real world that I want to do.

If there’s anything connecting my ideas together this year, it’s a commitment to beautiful things. So here goes.

1) Finish my crocheted Fairy Queen Coat. I bought the pattern a couple of years ago, or close to that, and only started it last spring or summer. But it’s a bigger project, so I’m actually progressing quite well. Because the Fairy Queen Coat is for me, and it’s not being made for any specific occasion or purpose, it has gotten bumped down the queue a few times as I took on time limited projects or gift projects or whatever. But I’ve always found it delightful to return to. It’s whimsical, pretty, and relaxing to work on.

2) Try bead crochet. I’ve been thinking about this for a while, but haven’t yet tried. I have some Christmas gift money set aside to buy a book to learn. While I was cleaning up I also found some pretty beads I’d given the girls a few months ago. They had made a few things with them but then forgotten about them, and scattered quite a few on the floor, which makes them officially forfeit. I picked them all up and set them aside for experiments. The colour palette is lovely.

3) Crochet a doll (and a tree, and some birds) inspired by our new dance. So far I’ve only chosen the patterns. I think this project will be super fun however. 

4) Gift projects: something always comes up, so I’m sure there will be one or two of these, but I don’t have any plans yet.

5) A major goal is to expand my sewing skills. I’ve done a decent amount of hand sewing: repairs, alterations, small projects. However, I want to learn how to cut and sew an actual garment. And I have a project in mind: My own Billie kilt.

I’ve been stepdancing for over 20 years. I started off self-taught, then 14 years ago I found a dance teacher in my city and I have been dancing with her group since. Many of the ladies in that group are long term dancers though of course people come and go. We don’t perform often but occasionally something comes up and when it does, we wear black with a short plaid skirt of our choice. I have wanted to get a new one for a while. But I don’t particularly want a mass produced item: I want it to be special, something that honours my long personal connection with Celtic music and dance and all the ways it has been a powerful creative force in my life.

I have no Scottish ancestry, so I don’t have a personal connection to any tartan. However, there is a pretty tartan that is named after my province. So it seemed to me that that was the one to go with. I could not find a ready made skirt in this tartan, so, obvious conclusion: I will make one.

I will probably use this pattern:

https://www.moodfabrics.com/blog/the-thistle-kilt-free-sewing-pattern/

And there’s even a video to help:

 https://youtu.be/AgkmOQbpwXo?si=jzjNQ_id_ed946_j

This project might have intimidated me previously but I don’t see that I have anything to lose, and I’m just going to go for it and assume the best. That’s what 2025 is all about!

6) Unfortunately, or perhaps fortunately, I will have to clean up my sewing / craft area first, which is a utter, uninspiring disaster.

7) I have had a lot of success since September with preparing appealing, (mostly) healthy and enjoyable lunches for all the family. I have been making them mostly the night before and it has made our mornings easier. My goal is to keep this up. It’s been very satisfying. 

8) With some birthday money, I bought The Divine Comedy by Dante. I have heard about it since my 20s when I had a friend who loved it, and most recently I read Rod Dreher’s Living in Wonder (that could be a whole other post) where he writes about how powerful it is. But I have never read it. I found a beautiful illustrated edition at a bookstore* and I have started reading it. It’s been a while since I read this much poetry but it is a good challenge.

*The bookstore where I found it also could be a whole other post. But we’ll keep the tone upbeat.

9) Next time I want a novel, like if there’s a long plane ride and/or theoretically relaxing vacation in my future (nothing planned yet) I want to read Kristin Lavransdatter.

10) Do more activities with family members, especially elderly ones. Try to overcome my aversion to phone calls enough to stay in touch more.

Finally, in the waning days of 2024 I made my first and most urgent New Year’s resolution: to go in person to a church service. I’ve known for quite a few years (since starting this blog actually) that I wanted to and/or should go, but I never actually did.

This month I went to a Vespers service at an Orthodox Church. One hour on a Saturday evening. I mistakenly went in the back door of the church - of course I did, that is so symbolically appropriate - and had to awkwardly ask someone to please tell me where to go. A nice lady showed me: I think she sang in the choir. 

The church was very beautiful and smelled very good. Nobody has ever suggested I go to church because it smells wonderful, but there you are: I had to attend in person to learn that.

A few brief observations:

-Although the atmosphere is lovely, and there is a lot to observe with icons and sacred objects of various kinds (I don’t know all the right terms), there is nothing focussed on entertainment in the Orthodox Church. In fact most of the time I couldn’t tell what individual was speaking or singing: the sound seemed to come from everyone and no one.

-There is something about being in a space with people who are focused on something higher than themselves that isn’t like anything else. Too often interactions with other people are about them getting something from me, or me getting something from them, or all of us getting more stuff, or we are all in our cars making each other angry. Being in the church with people worshipping wasn’t anything like that. It was’t even like taking a class or talking with friends or walking in a park. It was different. I knew it would be different before I walked in, and that made me anxious and afraid and maybe caused me to procrastinate for five years (but who’s counting). I can’t say I feel totally comfortable now or that I understand. But the fear and anxiety of experiencing something different is gone.

-The service was mostly singing, of various prayers and I think Bible stories, but to be honest I didn’t follow most of it. Some people had yellow pieces of paper that looked a kind of cheat sheet: I think if I had gone in the front door I could have gotten one. But I didn’t have any expectations: this evening was entirely about showing up. One of the reasons I chose this church is because it is English speaking, but on this evening anyway, I can’t say it mattered what language they were speaking. 

What next? I intend to go again, probably on a Saturday and/or Sunday next month. I likely won’t write about it again for a while. I feel like writing and thinking can turn into an excuse to not actually do anything. (What could I possibly know about that!)

I meant to discreetly take a photo on the way out, to prove I had really been there, but of course having come in the back door, I didn’t know which was the correct door to leave by either, and while I was trying to decide who to follow to get out I forgot.  Here instead is a blurry still, not taken by me. To remember there is a first time for everything!

Cold dark deep and absolutely clear

Everyone’s heard of going down a rabbit hole, but what about going down a tide pool?

We spent part of summer vacation near the ocean, and several memorable hours were spent in tidal zones encountering various kinds of sea life in the shallows and tide pools. Crabs, snails, fish, oysters, urchins, clams and many kinds of salty vegetable life were among the wonders we observed.

Some of my favourite memories: Wading with my eldest daughter while a big crab scuttled by our feet; scrambling over rocks to discover thousands of oysters and purple urchins clinging to rocks in clear pools; walking barefoot over sandstone and peering into tide pools. Some of these tide pools had no visible bottom: they might have gone downward for a few centimetres or a few meters, for all I could tell.

We also took a boat trip and observed a pod of orcas. They came (by their own choice) close enough that we could hear them breathe. To be in the presence of such beautiful creatures is an experience unlike any other and impossible to reproduce.

Naturally, we spent an amount of time in various gift shops too. I was open to buying something(s) that would remind me of all the beautiful experiences we shared. But nothing really seemed to resonate. I was attracted by the idea of a crab, as this was a motif of the trip. But the plush crabs on offer left me unenthused, as did their prices.

Then I thought: I crochet. I could make my own crab.

Well that seemed like a good idea. But why not also make that crab a home? And then maybe some other creatures for company?

On the last day of our vacation, I started planning. As our boat zoomed back to the shore after the orca watching trip, I developed and refined a vision. While waiting in the airport for our flight home, I sketched in my journal and wrote out lists of supplies.

What I had decided to do was a tide pool purse. This would be a fully functional purse, but it would unzip into two “pools” that would be full of crocheted critters that could be played with in their watery habitat. Times two, of course, because I shared this vacation with two children. One for each.

Once I got home I started work. Unlike many of my crochet projects, this one was invented in large part by me. There was a fair amount of experiential learning involved. The final product is very close to my original vision, but I the way I got to the final product was frequently adjusted.

About five months after I began, I was finished (just in time for Christmas):

The finished purses, one pictured closed and one opened.

Some cool things about this project:

I did buy some new materials, including the round wooden frames, a few non-crocheted toys and items, zippers, magnets, metal plates and the rope handles, and the yarn for the amigurumi sea creatures. However, most of the materials for the bags were from my stash or re-purposed.

All the blue material and tulle for the inside of the pools was from an outgrown kid costume I took apart. For the exterior of the pools, I looked through my yarn stash for any tones and textures that reminded me of the pools, and had a lot of fun mixing them up to make an organic looking texture. This process was a lot more spontaneous and fluid than many of my projects and I enjoyed the chance to let go of perfect balance.

There were so many opportunities to problem solve. I always had a vision and an idea, but the methods I imagined using did not always work. Attaching the sides of the pool to the frames is one example: I imagined crocheting “outside in” but found this almost impossible, so I crocheted the bowl-like sides first then attached them after. The final layer of watery gauze material frays badly and is too slippery to hem, so I had to experiment how to stabilize it: what worked was sewing down a chain of yarn around the edges. I was very excited about working with some metallic embroidery floss, only to find it hopelessly frustrating and not particularly attractive, so not much silver embroidery in evidence. 

All of this was more satisfying than frustrating though, and I found I had just enough challenge to keep the project from being “more of the same” while not creating challenges that were too far above my skill level. This was especially important as I did everything two times.

The left pool is lined with shiny blue material and pockets of layered tulle create an opaque texture allowing creatures to hide in different depths of “water”. At some point I also remembered some LED lights I had from another project and added those underneath the material:

The right side has an ivory lining with a few thinner layers of tulle, and a crocheted “seaweed” pocket: 

I crocheted a crab, fish, nautilus, oyster and snail for each bag. I added some other items too: a fish pen, a clam shaped mirror, a fidget toy to be an urchin (I couldn’t imagime how to make an urchin). More could be added, but I ran out of time.

Things that surprised me about this project:

• Just how much hand sewing I had to do. In my imagination I suppose everything just stuck together kind of magically. In reality hours and hours (and a few more hours) went into each of the linings, handles, and pockets.
• How it made my memories more real and meaningful. As I worked on each element of this project, I was re-living all our summer experiences and refining them into something pure and glowing.  It was completely worth it for no other reason than this.

How they were received:

I finished these in time for Christmas, and as a bonus, we were visiting the extended family we went on summer vacation with. The purses were not exactly a surprise, as it was impossible to hide that much work for so long. I do also feel that initially they were somewhat lost in the piles of gifts. However, they are being played with and I know from past experience that the handmade, durable items end up being favourites over time, even if they can be overlooked a bit in the moment. Also, they are pretty awesome, functional bohemian bags, so I hope they have a place in the future of young women, even if not being played with as toys. They are extremely well made and could last a lifetime (all that hand stitching!).

I hugely enjoyed the process of this project and the folk art pieces that I created. They are unique, like my memories and honour a special and shared time. I would definitely do a project to celebrate a special shared time again. 

References: the title is from “At the Fishhouses” by Elizabeth Bishop, a sea related poem that went through my head often as I was creating.

Winter Reading

Haddon  Turner

You Are Limited

If there is an overarching theme to nearly everything I’ve thought and written about in the past ten years, it is this: I’ve received a clear, unavoidable message that I Am Not In Control (and that’s a good thing)* How do I then understand reality and live a good life in this paradigm? Haddon Turner is also thinking about these questions. His essay feels especially relevant in the first cold snap of winter: the first time the snow and ice has stayed on the ground. Winter driving alone makes me very aware of my limitations and those of the people around me. (I approve of AI tools to make driving safer. For me at least, driving a car is a unnatural activity and it makes complete sense that I need to supplement my attention and cognition to do it safely.)

Quote:

“…..The irrevocable limitations of the created order will always be something we come up against — things which cause us to stop and will confound the best of our limitless plans. As long as there is daytime in which we can work, the limitations of the darkness of night will not be far behind. The seasons will always influence (for good or for ill) our labour and health, and the uncontrollable weather will waylay our best plans. And most profoundly, the earth’s spatial, energetic and resource limitations will constrain the heights our economic growth is able to reach. We live on a limited earth. Only a fool forgets this.”

Alex Kaschuta

Cope Springs Eternal

Every time I read a perceptive essay about the illusions and delusions of the internet, I think, This is ironic. Would I be better off not spending time on the internet instead of reading criticisms of it? To some degree, the answer is Yes. But if you are going to use any part of the internet for information or entertainment or connection or commerce, and I assume most people are, including myself, this sort of critique is helpful.

Quote:

“Cope is not about the content, but about the psychological function of consuming it. Both the content that offers options for what you might do, such as interior design, fitness, health, and financial planning, and the content that provides reasons for why you are not doing these things, such as conspiracies, social critique, and, let’s be honest, politics, can serve the function of cope. You might do one of the 176 useful things you’ve scrolled through today, or, even better, you might collect a few more for use in an indeterminate future. You could start looking around for little ways to improve your existence, but when the world is on fire and “improvement” itself is a heteropatriarchal concept or a plot by our gynocentric hypergamous overlords, it seems best to sit tight.”

Heather Heying

Interconnection

An anecdote that is a sort of bookend to my previous blog about politicizing every experience, every relationship, every communication and why that might be not a good idea.

Quote:

“…..My friend feels free to share her anguish with me, because, like so many of our friends and family members, she cannot conceive that I might feel the exact opposite. And that’s a large part of how we got here: Hubris.

We’re so right, many of them have been saying for years now, and we have God on our side. How could any sane person see anything differently than how we see it? And if you do think differently, well, you're just plain wrong, and you’re probably an “ist,” - a racist, a sexist, a misogynist, and especially, our favorite word, a fascist.”

Haddon Turner (again!)

Where You Are Is Where You Are

The quote above mentioned hubris, and Haddon Turner tackles hubris head on here, discussing what should be the main focus of our attention: the local, national, or global? When I look back at my life, I think I have always wanted, consciously or sub consciously, to live my life immersed in local community. But it took a lot of exploring, including time living in places far from my birthplace, to be able to begin to understand how to do that. It wasn’t something I was taught. I would venture this is true of many people born in the last 40-50 years. We learned, directly or indirectly, that we create our identities through consumption, not through participation in local community. 

I also continue to come to terms with the fact that my forebears were fleeing fractured communities (many layers of dislocation) and they did not, most likely could not, (not having experienced it themselves) pass on to me the kind of continuous tradition and coherent identity I have always wanted at some level. I agree with Turner that the local is the correct place to  aim one’s focus most of the time: but myself personally, and undoubtedly many other millions of people, are in their current home because of global forces beyond their control. So understanding who you are now may require also learning a bit about the global. 

Quote:

“You are not responsible for the whole world — far from it. But you are responsible for the local places in front of you: the local people who you relate to, the unique buildings, art, and beauty that you enjoy every day, and the local environments and habitats that surround the place you dwell. Where you are is where you are — and what you are responsible for. This is a burden heavy enough for us. This is a burden that matches our limitations. This is a burden that we can faithfully discharge. And this is a burden that will present us with a lifetime of opportunities for doing good.”

And the last word goes to Paul Kingsnorth: 

The Moses Option

Quote:

I used to believe in Big Movements and Big Ideas. I wrote whole books about them. Not any more. For a long time, I have believed something else instead: that if there is any world-saving to be done - if this notion is not in fact just hubristic and stupid in itself - then it is only going to come from the small, the local and, above all, the spiritual. And if there is no world-saving to be done - well, then our work remains exactly the same.

….And I might as well get on with it.